Hah! Hari ni sebenarnya Public Holiday. Agung's birthday u... Cheh! Aku kena kerja...
Sebabnya.. Report yang sangatla berlambaknya untuk di hapdet dan di siapkan.. Stress giler ar.

Minggu yang sangat sibuk.. Biasala bila sorang budak tu cuti or MC aku tak leh kuar buat sales and aku end up buat kerja2 ofis yang sangat banyak ni.. (bertambahla sb kerja dia pun aku kena buat)
Tapi aku okey je la kot...????

Menda yang ok.. Aku siap kena gastrik malam tu.. biasalah bila terlalu sibuk.. layan guest yang main terjah jer untuk buat inspection & discussion aku end up makan tengahari ntah pukul berapa.. Malam tergolek2 tahan sakit...

Sorang budak kat HQ KL.. kecoh sebab pembahagian segmentation untuk di cover.. Bodoh betul la.. Eeiii ! aku kalo tak pikir dia tu anak SIFU aku tentu dah lama aku sekeh jer kepala dia. Ni kes superior aku kat HQ KL yang gila kuasa and nak tunjuk dia buat kerja la tu..

Aku dah kerja sini dah 2 tahun lebih. Organizer kebanyakan dah terbiasa kerja dengan aku, cara kerja aku. Alih2 aku nak bagi segment aku kat budak berhingus ni? Ko nak cover yang baru amek la.. aku tak heran tapi jangan la organizer aku (yang mostly dah jadi kawan aku) ko nak kacau plak.. Leceh la..

Pastu ADOS KL ni gi mengadu kat bos aku kat sini.. (mana tak bos aku angin) dia pun cakap dia tak heran siapa cover segment mana.. janji business masyukk.. tapi tu la ADOS KL giler kuasa. Nak tunjuk dia buat kerja.. Walhal tak ada kerja.. ya la sales tak banyak, kacau la budak2 sales lain.. MENCI LA !!! MENCI!!!

Hari ni aku terlebih rajin and nak cuba untuk setel kan semua report and clearkan meja aku yang dah macam tongkang pecah ni...

Bosan Lagi

Bosan Lagi hari ni.. asyik2 bosan.. apa nak jadi dah...?

Last weekend was superb la gak.. Turun PJ g umah my mom... (since dia baru je renovate rumah) gi la tengok.. (kang kata durhaka lak tak jenguk) Ok la.. besar hall tu sekarang.. leh muat semua cucu-cucu untuk lepak & tido kat situ...

On Sunday, petang tu semua adik beradik turun.. Wah!! Meriah sungguh! Hari Raya pun tak cenggini.. (Maalum masing2 kan ada pasangan and ikut turn) So adik aku yang sorang tu suggest la gi Makan Seafood kat Subang..

Memang happening.. nak susun tempat duduk jer amek masa.. (ya la.. meja tu bukan la besar sangat pun.) End up tambah meja bulat kecil & rapatkan.. Budak2 duduk la yang kat meja kecik tu, kecuali budak2 bawah 5 tahun..

Menu was ok la... (mgkin dah biasa makan yang lebih lazat, tak ada la rasa menu kat situ best sangat) Ada ketam batu.. (which my 2nd son jadi tukang crack the Sepit of the Ketam.. ) tak sangka.. hebat gak.. and penyudahnya semua yang nak makan ketam suruh shuqry pecah with the small hammer...

Angah seriusly macam tercabar, dia pun nak buat la, try to crack penyepit ketam tu.. tak boleh, berterabur jadinya.... So Linda make fun of him masa dulu main game ngan budak2 pun nak berlawan.. (tak nak kalah, tapi kalah gak)

Enough about them. balik dalam pukul 9.50pm bertolak dari Subang & lalu NKVE..
Sesungguh aku yang tak banyak tempuh jalan ni.. dah try la jalan baru.. kuar ikut nilai,
tol pun kurang & masa pun jimat.. (15 min jer) tapi new experience la untuk aku.

But today.... Aku lupa nak inform boss that i went out for sales.. dia punya marah, dia siap tulis note besar2 (besar2 okey!) atas meja aku "I consider you absent today for not telling me where you have been!!!"

Aisye! Gua terlupa la.. so aku sms jer la boss. Explain & also mentioned to him that bila smpai ofis jer aku g jumpa client collect duit sb participant dah gi bakar curtain dlm bilik diorang...
To make things worst, dia marah aku balik sebab salah anggap ingat aku gi jumpa organizer di ofis diorang.. Which, sebenarnya aku tak kuasa pun ! Aku jumpa organizer di resort .. Knowing boss aku yang kerja dia adalah marah dulu baru tanya.. aku dah malas nak amek hati pun.. (hati aku dah mati kot)

Entah! Kalau tak kenangkan aku perlu cari rezeki sb nak besarkan 4 orang anak.. dah lama aku cabut.. Malas sungguh nak layan benda2 kecik mengarut ni.. Dah cukup baik aku gi collect duit.
Kalau ada la seseorang tu.. rasa aku dia sanggup kuar duit poket dia dari gi mintak (kes berat mulut & berat telor la ni)

So hari ni adalah hari yang membosankan.. (gi buat rambut lagi baik)

Ah... sambung lenkali jer la.. Malas.. nak sambung kerja la plak.

Bosannya!

Semenjak 2 menjak ni.. asyik rasa bosan jer.. (eh!? nak menoupause kot)

Pagi tadi pun masuk kerja lambat lagi.. Ada appointment dgn 1 client ni pukul 10am.. tapi pukul 10.40am baru tercongok kat lobby...

Bawa la sekeliling tengok suites semua.. Yang tak sedapnya.. budak front office bagi kunci untuk suites yang tak bersih lagi.. Arrggghhhh!!!! Stressnya!.. Terpaksa la cover line, ckp bilik ni je yang available tuk di tunjukkan yang lain lagi kotor sb diorang tak kemas lagi.. (boleh percaya ker apa yang ku cakap ni)

Anyway discuss lebih kurang (pagi ni mood kurang la nak bercakap banyak2) lebih lebih lagi tau yang pasni diorang nak gi tengok resort rival..

Pastu jumpa pengarah yang group dia dok buat seminar kat tmpat aku ni.. Borak lebih sket kurang.. Nampak mcm org tua gatal jer.. (tapi "don't judge the book by its cover k) so layan jer la borak2.. He looks happy with what we have organized. Pastu nak bagi lagi group 300pax..

Tapi yang paling cibainya ialah.. resort aku ni tak ada hall besar tu... (menci la!!) setakat 120pax classroom boleh la masuk.. ni 300 pax.. mana aku nak sumbat???

Macam ni je la.. aku percaya ada rezeki aku, adalah group tu.. lau tak.. cari je yang lain.

Nampak macam syok and senang jer kerja aku ni.. tapi kadang tu berbulu gak bila client pukul 11 malam call nak discuss..

"Wei!?? Resort ialah 24 jam bekerja." Aku ni nak gak rehat.. Bengong!!!

Bertahun rupanya aku senyapkan blog bengong ni.. Ni la masalah kalo orang buta IT macam aku..

Dari Kuala Lumpur.. aku buat keputusan untuk menjauhkan diri dari semuanya.. Bosan! Dari Kecil sampai la dah tua macam ni.. tak pernah aku merantau.. pergh!! macam la PD tu jauh sangat.

So ujung tahun 2009 ( aku buat keputusan untuk menginap di PD) Abis ku angkut ke empat2 cahaya mataku.. (Decision which i made after doing a thousand times of thinking)

Anyway... mungkin tuhan dah beri jalan padaku untuk keluar dari kepompong yang biasa...

So bermula lah sejarah ku di sini....

Esok sambung lagi... sebabnya baru tadi aku ntah macamana TER open link kat sini.. (eh! ya ker)
boleh jer la..

woo... its been a while since i last type anything in this blog of mine...

getting bored with everything... works sucks.. business was not that good. Everywhere i went they seems to say that their budget for next year has been cut down... meaning to say.. there will be not so many events to be held outside their premises...

Govt budget ...? Management wants to increase on the rates.. but the govt sector seems to say that their budget will remain.. Its hard to be the middle person.. u want business and at the same time you have to follow orders... FENIN! FENIN!

My sweet girl call me yesterday.. she cried.. she wants to come home to me... but i can't take her
since its school holiday and her dad got the chance to be with her.. even though she prefer to be with me... Beside, i have to let her go coz.. the father supposed to buy the school items for them.. since schoold re-open just around the corner... just hope its not going to be the same as always.. as 16 years with him.. everything about the children is always last minute.. pity them..

but .. if i were to buy them the things.. he will again as usual.. "lepas tangan" and just do nothing..
(he is great at doing that)

my elder son is working with the father now.. he want to enter the guitar class .. so.. he has to earn it .. to pay for the registration. (monthly will be paid by .. me)

and next year two of them are going to be taking UPSR and SPM... Hope they will do well..

and as for me... someone whom i used to adore will be coming over to KL and might be staying here for good... but its not a good news for me.. since i m the one who dont want to see him anymore... (its hard when you know someone whom are not local, takes good care of you.. and treat you like a princess.. but .. you cant have him). The only solution is .... i just have to let go... even though its hurts me so badly...

Hope one day.. i will find someone who will accept me as i am... but that will be just a dream..

Its normally very hard for a mother to re-married because she normally will be thinking more about the children then herself..

May God give me strength...

Weekend yang membosankan

Yeah! Monday is here... kalau tak.. its going to be a very boring weekend.. Sepatutnya nak pergi jogging hari sabtu pagi, but since something happened to my dearest friend uncle, apa yang dirancang tak dapat nak di lakukan. End up i did the spring cleaning in my house... since the children are not around. Mudah la sikit pergerakan tu. Habis semua kain baju, cadar, towel di basuh. Whoaaa.. macam kedai dobi la plak.
Sambil2 tu menonton TV. Selalunya memang tak suka nak tengok citer hindustan, tapi sabtu lepas, cerita nya menarik minat for me untuk terus menonton.. Story about a mother whose husband has betrayed her to another woman and got married to the other lady and went to court to have the custody of her children. Because of her love to the children, she had killed them and herself by poisening them and not knowing that she actually had died...
Kind of a ghost story but.. i think it has touched me a lot since it somehow has some connection with me...
Later that evening, i went to my best friend's house and stay with her on that saturday... since both of us is not the type of hanging outside, we both being hooked infront of the TV watching every Astro channel she had... Duh!!!
Maybe because of age, even though i had the chance of going out and have fun.. but its just not me.. So its kind of boring for others but its just the way i LEPAK and relax...
yeah... BORING la gak, sebab tak ada suara anak2 yang sering ketawa, menjerit, menangis.. Rasanya itu lah hiburan yang paling indah buat seorang ibu...

Yesterday nite... Anak yang sulung (Fiqry, 16thn) beriya2 mintak tolong hantarkan ke rumah
ayahnya... They were supposed to be pick up by my ex to his house. As usual he gave the normal reason that he is busy with work. Prior to that, i do not like to see the face of my children pouting over on this matter.. so off i go... change my attire and ask them to get ready and sent them.
Jalan MRRII.. macam biasa agak sesak dengan kereta.. tambahan dengan hujan renyai ... i have to be extra carefull since most of the other drivers seems to be in hurry and tak peduli orang dan bila rasa nak mencelah, main celah je la..
Conversation with my elder son are mostly on issue biasa. He did mentioned about how is stepmother asked him to cook rice.. and she actually laugh at him on the way dia bersih kan beras.... Yang peliknya cara the stepmother basuh beras, lagi la mengerikan.. cuma tambah air dan masuk kan ke rice cooker and switch on.. Eeeiiiiii! Kotornya ! So Fiqry told me that i thought him to clean it at least 3 times and selawat tiapkali basuh.. He mentioned no wonder nasi bila petang dah basi...
His birthday is coming this December 5th. and i actually has made a promise to buy him a guitar which he wanted since Jun this year. Hmmmm.. that will cost me RM300 plus.. Wooow! I have to make a new budget on this.. Entahla.. kalo ikut gaji.. dengan keadaan my ex yang sekejap bagi sekejap tidak tu.. rasa macam boleh ke aku beli ni... tapi Insyaallah.. rasanya rezeki anak ada kan....
Talking about nafkah, pelik rasa sepatutnya setiap bulan dia patut ketepikan nafkah anak2. Tapi masalah dengan dia ni.. Kepentingan anak selalu jatuh nombor 2.. That's why, kadang2 aku terima kadang2 tidak. Best part is, boleh marah and tell me.. jangan mintak, kalo ada dia bagi, kalo tidak tak adalah.. Best sungguh reason ni...
Tp macam ni la.. For me tak heran sangat, sedang masa jadi isteri dia pun nafkah tak ada bagi mustahil sekarang dia akan beringat.. Tapi aku yakin Allah maha mengetahui.. dan alhamdulillah rezeki anak2 belum putus lagi.. cuma aku harus bekerja kuat, untuk dapatkan apa yang aku dapat sekarang... and i pray to God to give me the strength.. sebab kadang2 rasa terlalu letih dengan keadaan... Ujian tuhan.. sekiranya dia tau aku tidak kuat, tentu dia tak uji aku macam ni kan...