woo... its been a while since i last type anything in this blog of mine...

getting bored with everything... works sucks.. business was not that good. Everywhere i went they seems to say that their budget for next year has been cut down... meaning to say.. there will be not so many events to be held outside their premises...

Govt budget ...? Management wants to increase on the rates.. but the govt sector seems to say that their budget will remain.. Its hard to be the middle person.. u want business and at the same time you have to follow orders... FENIN! FENIN!

My sweet girl call me yesterday.. she cried.. she wants to come home to me... but i can't take her
since its school holiday and her dad got the chance to be with her.. even though she prefer to be with me... Beside, i have to let her go coz.. the father supposed to buy the school items for them.. since schoold re-open just around the corner... just hope its not going to be the same as always.. as 16 years with him.. everything about the children is always last minute.. pity them..

but .. if i were to buy them the things.. he will again as usual.. "lepas tangan" and just do nothing..
(he is great at doing that)

my elder son is working with the father now.. he want to enter the guitar class .. so.. he has to earn it .. to pay for the registration. (monthly will be paid by .. me)

and next year two of them are going to be taking UPSR and SPM... Hope they will do well..

and as for me... someone whom i used to adore will be coming over to KL and might be staying here for good... but its not a good news for me.. since i m the one who dont want to see him anymore... (its hard when you know someone whom are not local, takes good care of you.. and treat you like a princess.. but .. you cant have him). The only solution is .... i just have to let go... even though its hurts me so badly...

Hope one day.. i will find someone who will accept me as i am... but that will be just a dream..

Its normally very hard for a mother to re-married because she normally will be thinking more about the children then herself..

May God give me strength...