Yesterday nite... Anak yang sulung (Fiqry, 16thn) beriya2 mintak tolong hantarkan ke rumah
ayahnya... They were supposed to be pick up by my ex to his house. As usual he gave the normal reason that he is busy with work. Prior to that, i do not like to see the face of my children pouting over on this matter.. so off i go... change my attire and ask them to get ready and sent them.
Jalan MRRII.. macam biasa agak sesak dengan kereta.. tambahan dengan hujan renyai ... i have to be extra carefull since most of the other drivers seems to be in hurry and tak peduli orang dan bila rasa nak mencelah, main celah je la..
Conversation with my elder son are mostly on issue biasa. He did mentioned about how is stepmother asked him to cook rice.. and she actually laugh at him on the way dia bersih kan beras.... Yang peliknya cara the stepmother basuh beras, lagi la mengerikan.. cuma tambah air dan masuk kan ke rice cooker and switch on.. Eeeiiiiii! Kotornya ! So Fiqry told me that i thought him to clean it at least 3 times and selawat tiapkali basuh.. He mentioned no wonder nasi bila petang dah basi...
His birthday is coming this December 5th. and i actually has made a promise to buy him a guitar which he wanted since Jun this year. Hmmmm.. that will cost me RM300 plus.. Wooow! I have to make a new budget on this.. Entahla.. kalo ikut gaji.. dengan keadaan my ex yang sekejap bagi sekejap tidak tu.. rasa macam boleh ke aku beli ni... tapi Insyaallah.. rasanya rezeki anak ada kan....
Talking about nafkah, pelik rasa sepatutnya setiap bulan dia patut ketepikan nafkah anak2. Tapi masalah dengan dia ni.. Kepentingan anak selalu jatuh nombor 2.. That's why, kadang2 aku terima kadang2 tidak. Best part is, boleh marah and tell me.. jangan mintak, kalo ada dia bagi, kalo tidak tak adalah.. Best sungguh reason ni...
Tp macam ni la.. For me tak heran sangat, sedang masa jadi isteri dia pun nafkah tak ada bagi mustahil sekarang dia akan beringat.. Tapi aku yakin Allah maha mengetahui.. dan alhamdulillah rezeki anak2 belum putus lagi.. cuma aku harus bekerja kuat, untuk dapatkan apa yang aku dapat sekarang... and i pray to God to give me the strength.. sebab kadang2 rasa terlalu letih dengan keadaan... Ujian tuhan.. sekiranya dia tau aku tidak kuat, tentu dia tak uji aku macam ni kan...